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Hey!, as they say, I showed up again this morning. Alive, I like being alive. I've been under deepest anesthesia for surgery several Times, and came back having been nowhere, absolutely nowhere, not even in darkness, but beyond the nothingness of oblivion so total as to not even have existed, nonexistence: to NOT BE. Returning to life, I realized that Time had passed during which I was not. There was Before Me, and there will be After Me. To any extent I WAS before being conceived, it was the WAS-ness of a dream, not even my dream but someone else's dream. To any extent I WAS during deep anesthesia, it was the WAS-ness of memory, someone, anyone, else's memory, not mine. Not "NDE," a near-death experience, it was the experience of no experience at all, not remembered upon returning, but realized, the experience of death, which, having returned to think about it, I realize it to have been no experience at all, none whatsoever, fading into eternity. To be raised...