thursday thinking


 

Yesterday from Wordsmith's a-word-a-day:

A THOUGHT FOR TODAY:

The belief in the possibility of a short decisive war appears to be one of the most ancient and dangerous of human illusions. -Robert Lynd, writer (20 Apr 1879-1949) 


From The Guardian this morning:

‘We’re Catholic first’: Sunday mass attenders weigh in on Trump’s feud with Pope Leo



More from The Guardian this morning:


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Years ago an Episcopal priest who, whether he ever realized it or not, was a theological and moral mentor to me (mostly absently because I was always far away in later years) told me "I don't think you should do it." I was 22 year old at the Time, maybe 23, a college graduate, married with a baby, a young Navy officer, and I was discussing with him my intention to go to Sewanee and heading for ordination and life as a parish priest when I finished my three year Navy commitment - - heading for seminary. I heard David say, "I don't think you should do it." Taken aback, almost stunned, I put the idea away, I thought permanently, and augmented from USNR to USN, committing to a Navy career for that second twenty-year chapter of my life - - an easy decision at the Time because I was loving my tour of duty in a destroyer, a warship where I was so affirmed. 

As it, my life, turned out of course, the roads I took when they diverged in Frost's yellow wood, I ended up being summoned back to the seminary and ordination track some twenty years later. Ten or fifteen years into it, fifty-five or sixty years old, I was visiting with Fr David and reminisced about that ancient conversation, asked if he remembered, and he actually did remember. I said that his words to me had surprised me, rerouted my life, and turned me away from all thoughts of ordination. David was shocked and denied saying that, but I told him the words were engraved in my mind and I remembered them exactly. He then said that I had not heard what he intended to say. 

By then he was long retired, and I was not for from my own second retirement, this Time as a parish priest. Not long after that reunion meeting, the mail brought a little package from David with a plaque that reads, 

I KNOW YOU BELIEVE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU THINK I SAID, BUT I AM NOT SURE YOU REALIZE THAT WHAT YOU HEARD IS NOT WHAT I MEANT.

Fr David has been dead for years now; but judging by the sticker strips on the back of the little plaque, David had peeled it off the wall of his study, where, he told me, it had helped him understand why parishioners so often understood totally differently from his intentions what he had said in sermons. I've experienced that too, going by the piety that no matter what we intend to say, the Holy Spirit will stand between our words and the listeners' hearing, interceding as the hearer needs. 

Usually, anyway. It isn't always like that: in my forty-some years as priest-in-pulpit, I twice had a parishioner, two different people at two different parishes I served, challenge my, to me, positive sermon, as quite hurtful. But usually. 

Why am I here this Tuesday morning late in my 91st April? Because from past experience I should have known that something I wrote recently was not unlikely to be read and received differently from what I was contemplating when I wrote it. I was thinking about Life, every human Life, including not only my own Life and the Lives of those I have known and loved, but the Lives of the most famous and the most invisible humans in human history. Abraham Lincoln - - Winston Churchill - - the nameless slave-girl child of one of Pontius Pilate's slaves - - the most insignificant soldier who died in the wars of Alexander the Great - - the lowest ranking soldier under the centurion who headed that Good Friday at Calvary's Hill - - the most nameless unidentifiable rotting corpse bulldozed into a mass burial pit at Auschwitz - - we, all of us humans finish up and leave Life behind as at most a name on a grave marker that someone will stroll past on their way to another grave with a fistful of flowers.

Someone did pick up on it, though, remembering a Muslim acquaintance quoting, We are dust, We are nothing.

We are anonymous ants fighting among ourselves, hating and killing each other on a beautiful blue planet, a priceless gift that is but a speck among billions, trillions, quadrillions of specks. And does the Pantokrator know us, does he love us, each and every one of us? That nameless soldier fighting with Alexander? Pilate's slave-girl? Will the Creator remember each of us as his Creation, this Universe, continues to expand until its heat dissipates, cools to absolute zero, and vanishes with no evidence of ever having Been? As I Seek the Truth, my inclination is to seek among the writings of Thomas Hardy. 

Seeking, I will say that I also am Catholic first. I will say that, like Nesrine Malik, I also see the cruelty. Astonished, appalled, yet will I not despair - - close, but no, I will not. Someone once said in a contemplative group I was part of that "despair is the greatest sin." Maybe so. IDK.

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