standin' in the need


Tuesday: A+

What? I can hardly - no cannot at all, much less hardly can - keep up with my own outward and inward selves, much less try to guide, advise, help and tend Other souls, what am I, divine? God? No, you’re on your own, Others, and you know gardenia well who you are, straighten up and fly right, but not like me; do not - - as St. Paul says of himself (Philippians 3:17, 1 Corinthians 4:16, 1 Corinthians 11:1) - - do what I do, follow my example, imitate me. 

Up point four, down point 3. A+ 4.4. A 4.0. A- 3.7. B+ 3.4. B 3.0. B- 2.7. C+ 2.4. C 2.0. C- 1.7. D+ 1.4. D 1.0. D- 0.7. F 0.

What brings this on? A not so sudden but conquering awareness of at least outward self. Myself I can find in Romans 7:16-20, that's me alright, though Paul and I part when he says (18 and 20), “it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” No, it’s me alright; though hopefully the outward me, not my inward self. No, it’s me, it’s me, it’s me, O Lord ...  


Bubba D minus
Gotta get that grade up.




Romans 7:15-20 (NIV)

15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.